A cruel illness

On this day 19 years ago I lost my dad to Motor Neurone Disease (MND).  He was diagnosed with this dreadful illness 2 years before he died,  after displaying symptoms of slurred speech and being unsteady on his feet. Unfortunately it didn’t take long for the symptoms to escalate, only months later he was in a wheelchair and he was very soon bed bound and unable to care for himself at all.

For me the worst symptom to cope with was that he was unable to speak for much of his illness, it was very frustrating for him as he couldn’t communicate without the aid of a typing machine and towards the end of his life that was almost impossible for him to use. After he died I found myself watching the video of my first wedding over and over just to hear his voice because I couldn’t remember what it sounded like.

My dad was extremely fit and walked everywhere before he got ill, this disease cruelly took his independence and life. Even though it’s been 19 years I still find his illness and death hard to deal with. I wish he could have met my sister in law and my nieces and I wish he could have seen the strapping young men my sons have grown into. But I’m not sure what he would have made of me running off and marrying a young Turk!!

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Unbelievably there is still only one charity dedicated to MND. They seem to be making some breakthrough with finding the cause and possible treatments but still seem to be a long way off offering anything concrete.

June is MND awareness month and there are plenty of fundraising events to get involved with, so that more lovely dosh can be raised to carry on the good work. Check out the link below and let’s see if we can kick this foul disease up the butt!!

<a title=”Fundraising: Fundraising – There are many exciting ways you can raise much-needed funds for the MND Association – either as Get Yourself Involved or through your Get Your Business Involved or to Do Your Own Thing.” href=”http://www.mndassociation.org/ca6ac6fe17b24e5298a6d1ca80382399?

I gotta have one

I worked a couple of night shifts this week and in the middle of the night, when sometimes there is a lull in the work, we usually end up talking about strange things.

Sunday night was no exception, my colleague, Helen,was telling me that her daughter wanted a pet, nothing unusual in that I hear you say. She didn’t want the usual rabbit or guinea pig but a goat, again not that strange. Helen then said if she bought her daughter a goat it would have to be a ‘fainting’ goat.

She went on to tell us about this particular breed of goat would go into a catatonic state when scared or excited and were often kept with herds of sheep, so that if a predator came along, while the goats were fainting the sheep would get away and the fox or wolf would then eat the poor unfortunate goats, thus saving the more valuable sheep.

As Helen was telling us this early Monday morning I did think that it was an April fools joke until she showed us the evidence……. take a look at this it’s hilarious.

Next Challenge? Bring it on!

Now that I’ve done the Return to Nurse practice course and got the job in the bag it’s time to get on with the next challenge, operation ‘Get Hasan to the UK’.

I fear my quest to bring my hubby to live with me could be a bigger job than getting back to work. There seems to be so much red tape and hoops to jump through to prove that we are a proper married couple.

My first task is to nurse my bank account back to health, after 7 years of starvation it desperately needs to put on some weight. Then I need to get all the paperwork and evidence together up together to satisfy the UK Border Agency that we didn’t just marry so that Hasan could get a visa and that we can live without relying on benefits.

The key to a good application is the letter of invitation and support from me. So I have done a fair bit of research into writing an effective letter, but if anyone out there has any advice for me it would be greatly appreciated.

I think it’ll probably take at least 2 to 3 months to build up a decent bank balance, then we can submit his application. I just hope the process won’t be too long winded and expensive.

I just want Hasan with me here, at the moment I feel like I’m having a holiday romance with my husband.

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Back where I belong

At long last my nursing registration has been renewed. I checked the Nursing and Midwifery Council, (NMC), register online today and saw the magic words and PIN number on screen.

I am so ecstatic about the news because now I am officially a ‘proper nurse’ again. For the last month I have been working at a band lower than I should be as a registered nurse on my unit and now I can be changed to the higher band, where I belong. It has been a very frustrating time because as a non registered nurse I couldn’t give any medicines at work and therefore couldn’t be completely responsible for all my patients’ care. On the unit drug therapy is a massive part of the nursing care and I’ve had to ask my colleagues to do this for me.  I found this very annoying as I’m a very experienced nurse in this specialty, I worked on this unit for 15 years before my illness.

I’m so proud of myself for getting to this point in my life, this time 2 years ago I was in a completely different place; despondent, desperate and doubting whether I had a future in work at all. It’s been a hard slog but it’s definitely been worth the mammoth effort.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all my friends and family for all their fantastic support over the last year, especially to my mum for letting me invade her home and to my husband Hasan for coping without me and for all the love, support and encourage he gives everyday from Turkey.

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Happy Mother’s Day

Today it’s Mother’s Day and may I take this opportunity to wish all mothers a very happy day.

Mothering Sunday is always held on the fourth Sunday of lent, exactly 3 weeks from Easter. Traditionally people visited the church where they were baptised, their mother church. It was also a time when workers ‘in service’ would go home and visit their mothers.

Nowadays it is a day to honour our mums and shower them with cards, gifts, flowers and love.

Unfortunately I’m working all day so won’t see much of my lads or my mum.

On Friday night my brownie and rainbow units held a tea party for their mums, they made flowers, cards and tea for them to celebrate their special day. They did so well and were fantastic hostesses and their mums loved it.

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Oh I do like to be beside the seaside

It was Saturday and it wasn’t raining, (although it was very cold), so that can only mean one thing…. it was day out time with my bestest friend Jane, this time though we are accompanied by my other bestest friend Debbie.

This latest excursion looked promising, (any regular reader of my blog will know we’ve had quite a few dodgy ones),as we were meeting Jane in her home town of Clevedon for a flower show and table top sale in the local community centre.

 

It was so quaint and sweet with a flower and veg competition and  a very delicious cake contest.

It was so quaint and sweet with a flower and vegetable show and a very delicious looking baking competition. It didn’t take us long to make our way around the hall and part with the best part of a tenner.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Deb enjoying some teaThen we did what we do best and retired to the tea room to sup tea, stuff ourselves with yummy homemade cakes and inspect our bargain purchases.

Me and Jane and our fabulous purchases

 

 

 

 

 

 

Next on the agenda was a visit to the sea front as Deb hadn’t seen the pier for ages. Clevedon Pier is one of the 78 piers around the coast of Britain built between 1854 and 1904. Work was completed in 1869 and the official opening was in March of that year. Unfortunately parts of the pier collapsed into the sea when load bearing tests were carried out, restoration started in 1984 and it was partially reopened in 1989. By 1998 the pier was fully opened and thousands came out to witness the event, many of them in Victorian costume. In January 2001 it was upgraded from grade 2 listing to grade 1 along with the only other listed pier in Brighton.

Jane and Deb by the pier

 

We didn’t stay out in the cold too long admiring the view, we were drawn into yet another cafe for coffee and hot chocolate.

 

 

 

 

I had such a lovely afternoon with two great friends and we are so lucky to have a lovely little seaside town on our doorstep to enjoy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Can only get better

I’ve nearly finished my first 2 weeks in my new job on my old unit and I must say I’ve coped really well. Although after each 12 hour shift I’ve felt very tired, once I’d had a good nights sleep I felt refreshed. I was worried that I would feel dreadful the following day but so far that’s not been the case.

I have however been finding my first few weeks very frustrating. I finished the Return to Nurse Practice course in November but our results have only just gone to the external awards board and we don’t get our registration numbers, (PIN), until sometime in March. This means that at the moment I am not allowed to check and give any medicines and be responsible for all my patients’ care until I receive my PIN. Before I became ill I worked on this unit as a senior staff nurse and I just want to be a fully functioning member of staff as I used to be.

I’m hoping that any day now my letter from the Nursing and Midwifery Council, (NMC), will drop on my doormat with all the paperwork I need to complete to get my PIN.  I don’t like doing anything half-baked, but I know there’s nothing I can do at the moment but wait…….that’s another thing I don’t like.

 

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Love is all around

May I take this opportunity to wish everyone a very  happy Valentine’s day.

I hope that you all had a wonderful day with your loved one, or received a card from someone you hope will be your loved one someday.

Unfortunately I am still apart from my hubby, but I know that this period of our lives will be over soon and in the end it’ll all be worth it.

I thought I would share with you some facts about love that I stole from my daily newspaper:

– Analysis of people’s brain activity when looking at pictures of loved ones has shown that falling in love has much in common to drug addiction.

– Research published in 2012 claimed that falling in love takes only a fifth a of second.

– According to a recent market survey, 2% of people have fallen in love in a supermarket.

– When we fall in love, the brain releases more dopermine, adrenaline and norepinepherine. The first of those creates feelings of euphoria while the other two cause heart fluttering and restlessness.

– Slovenia is the only country with ‘love’ spelt out in it’s name.

This is my favourite:

– Love, n: a temporary insanity curable by marriage (from Ambrose Bierce, Devil’s dictionary).

I don’t know about temporary insanity but I am still crazy in love with my hubby, Hasan, and it definitely hasn’t been cured by marriage!

For you Hasan xxx

For you Hasan xxx

 

 

 

“love” facts from Daily Express 14.02.2013.

Getting close now

At last I have a start date for my job. I am starting this coming Monday on a day shift.

I am experiencing a multitude of feelings ranging from excitement to fear, from happiness to apprehension.  In my head I know I can do the job and that I’m fit enough to fulfill the role, but that doesn’t stop the nagging doubt I have inside me.

I’ve decided to go with the flow and do the best I can and if I find the hours too much then that’s what occupational health is for.

I’m really looking forward to being part of a team and to have a focus for my life again, (apart from my hubby and family). Not being able to work and giving up my career was the most devastating part of my illness, I’m delighted that I’ve come through it and have managed to get back to nursing.

The things I’ve learnt from being ill is to not take on too much and spread myself too thinly, to take of myself and my health, and accept help when offered instead of struggling on alone.

I hope that I remember these lessons when I go back into the world of work.

 

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